The Terror of Prison Sex
By: Timmy Pratt
For a certain number of men in
prison, sex is a terror. They form a class of usually young, usually white,
usually "pretty" (or not-ugly) men of whom I'm an example, albeit,
a fictitious one.
It's always essential to be
strong and manly, especially in prison. It's important to be tough and
unafraid. In prison there are a lot of predators who want to have sex with
me.
I've always had a strong sex
drive. It's only natural for a young man. I would never admit it to the other
prisoners, but, besides having had plenty of girls, as a boy, I also was
involved in some shameful sex with other males. Nothing very serious, you
understand, but I let some other boys and men give me certain filthy kinds of
pleasure.
It makes me realize that I have
an unnatural weakness. It frightens me a little. I must be continually strong
and manly. It would be really, really weak to allow myself to be seduced.
That would even be worse than being raped.
After years in jail, I'm
lonely. I want sex. Sometimes I feel like I NEED sex. It would be shamefully
unmanly to allow some pervert to talk me into having sex with him or to let
him give me affection or "friendship," or favors so that I felt
like I was obligated to have sex with him.
You'd be surprised at how many
men in prison are weak and give-in to having sex with other men. Like me,
most of them aren't "queers." They are just sexually starved and
they crave affection and interaction with others. But it's an unmanly
weakness.
Masturbation is a weakness, too.
I try not to give-in to touching myself. It's more natural to have
wet-dreams. You can't help having them, so that's not unmanly. The strongest
and most masculine men can't help having wet-dreams.
Pornography is bad, too. It
makes you think about sex even more than you would otherwise. It makes you
even weaker and even more sexually hungry.
I'm afraid to be too sexually
hungry. If I was, it would be too easy to give-in to masturbation, or even to
allow myself to be seduced. It's important to be strong and to be on guard.
It's hard enough to be on guard against all the predators who want to degrade
me by taking advantage of me sexually. I must also be on guard that I don't
humiliate myself or allow myself to be humiliated by my own strong sexual
desires.
Some inmates have sex with
members of the staff. That's better, at least when it's with the female
staff. The guys who have sex with the male guards, they aren't much better
than the many who get with other prisoners or use the jailhouse faggots. But
there aren't many of them. I mean there aren't many inmates who have sex with
the male guards. There are plenty of faggots.
In this prison there are
probably 100 or 150 real faggots, maybe one or two out of every hundred
inmates. They are the real freaks who don't care that everyone knows what
they're into. But, for every one of the "queens," there are three
or four guys who pretend to be strong, normal, manly men but are really
swapping out with other men. It's a terrifying weakness.
I've always kept myself athletic
and physically fit. I'm not going to let any of the predators rape me or even
think that I'm weak enough for them to dare to try it. What would happen to
my sense of manhood? And the other men would make fun of me! It's enough to
give you a complex!
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Credit to: http://www.prisoners.com/rapefear.html
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Prison rape and sexual assault are both very serious matters. This article explains what it feels like to be in a situation where prison sexuality is prevalent. When Timmy Pratt says "But, for every one of the "queens," there are three or four guys who pretend to be strong, normal, manly men but are really swapping out with other men." we can relate it to Boggs and "the sisters" perfectly. This shows us how sexuality in prison is such a traumatizing matter and should make us realize what a strong man Andy Dufrenes was in the film. He managed to keep his hopes up despite the sexual trauma he experienced.
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